Live Your Dream

Its 3 in the morning and I am all drenched with the splashes of my " Office Work" ,with only one- half of my health. The situation is critical and the problem intense ,with no foreseeable solution yet .
Nothing is clicking , and as I lit up a cigarette, I wonder what happened to that small kid ,who wanted to make it big and what happened to that highly ambitious youngster ,who was ready to push his limits. Was this pushing the limits ? Was this his "big" thing ? The questions will never end and satisfactory answers to them don't exist.

True, I work for one of the "Big-Four" companies of the world , but did I make it big. I feel sad for that little kid who kept strolling around with a bat in his hand ,practicing his shots here and there , missing coaching classes ,just to do what he loved and always dreamed of accomplishing . The feeling of not doing what you always wanted to do is highly taxing . We all have dreams . But how many us are living it or have even managed to keep it alive . Its a pity that we are so succumbed by the practicality of life that we give up our "dreams" ,just because it would be the "Right" thing to do .No risks ,no happiness either .

Its not easy and I am no indifferent. As I write this post staring in the mirror. I could barely look at myself. The breathing in my chest pushing in and out rapidly. Tears rushing down my face. I was a grown man, or at least I was supposed to be. Fifty hours a week to a job that is slowly, inch by inch, sucking the life out of me.Its not where I am supposed to be . Its a classic case of the "wrong guy being at the wrong place ".

You block your dream when you allow your fear to grow bigger than your faith. Follow The Dream. My inner conscience keeps shouting . Its time I listen to it . No promises ,but at least make a step forward .Its said ,at some point your dream will mean so much to you that you will stop at nothing. When the dream overtakes you, no matter what your fears are you will not allow it to stop you. You will stare your fears in the face. You will become a courageous person. The pursuit of a dream will give you experiences you never thought possible.

Doing what you love and living your life on your own terms are the best things you can do for yourself.Think big , you can make it big . Make your life worth . Give your dreams a shot . Give that kid in you a chance , the kid who knew no fear and logic .




You can be the greatest
You can be the best
You can be the King Kong banging on your chest

You can beat the world
You can beat the war
You can talk to God, go banging on his door

You can throw your hands up
You can beat the clock (yeah)
You can move a mountain
You can break rocks
You can be a master
Don't wait for luck
Dedicate yourself and you gon' find yourself

Standing in the hall of fame (yeah)
And the world's gonna know your name (yeah)
'Cause you burn with the brightest flame (yeah)
And the world's gonna know your name (yeah)
And you'll be on the walls of the hall of fame

You can go the distance
You can run the mile
You can walk straight through hell with a smile

You can be the hero
You can get the gold
Breaking all the records they thought never could be broke

Yeah, do it for your people
Do it for your pride
How are you ever gonna know if you never even try?

Do it for your country
Do it for your name
'Cause there's gonna be a day...

When you're standing in the hall of fame (yeah)
And the world's gonna know your name (yeah)
'Cause you burn with the brightest flame (yeah)
And the world's gonna know your name (yeah)
And you'll be on the walls of the hall of fame




(Hall Of Fame -The Script ).

Love In A Metro - Prelude

Today was  a big day . Rajeev was going to be elected the head of the "Technical Department " at his company .In the last four months Rajeev had been working late hours . The perpetual neglection from his superiors and overtime had taken its toll on the man. But finally his hard work had paid off and with the change in the companies "Board Of Directors ", he was finally getting acknowledgement for his efforts and contributions .

So now there he was on his way on the metro platform . He was on the phone with his mother whose sole ambition seemed to be to remind Rajeev to get married. Rajeev's personal love life had been virtually non-existent these past four months. Earlier there had been a girl but it did not work out between them . As always Rajeev said he will find a girl soon and she should not worry. It was rush hour and he had to jostle his way out of the crowd. Someone jabbed him with his elbow but he continued forward and in  broken strides went up to the platform. Suddenly he dropped his mobile phone. He bent to pick it up, straightened himself and put it in his blazer's pocket. His glance then reached the opposite platform and towards the person standing on it straight up front. His heart stopped as he looked upon the angel. The purest kind of beauty making the roses that she held pale in comparison. Her hair shimmering like silk. He felt as if his whole life had led upto this moment. She wore a formal dress of perfect proportions not too long and not too short. The perfectly chiseled legs resting on ankles adorned with beautiful sandals. She stood out from the crowd with her glowing skin with a scarlet blush in her cheeks. It seemed as though she was standing there for Rajeev to admire. The flowers that she held were so beautiful and fresh that Rajeev thought he could smell them. He imagined her smell more powerful than the roses. And her eyes, her magnificient eyes sparkled like the light at the end of a tunnel diffused by diamonds. And in that moment she lookedup, there eyes met. A smile formed on her red lips. 

Rajeev had lived and now he could die for he had seen the most beautiful sight his eyes could ever wish to see. The metro-train arrived and it was like a curtain pulled between them. Rajeev frantically fell out of the starstruck state. He stood on his toes to get a look but in vain. The doors opened and people rushed in from the platforms into the train. Rajeev received several pushes but he wouldn't stop trying to get a glimpse of the  girl as if it was the last thing he wanted to do in his life. Finally he was the only person left on the platform. Slowly the train started slipping away until it was out of the station.His eyes widened with joy  as he saw the only person standing on the other platform. The look of anticipation on her face which slowly transformed itself to the most angelic of smiles.

To be continued 

College Aftermath

I graduated in July this year . Last day of the college and a sense of doom engulfed my pedestrian mind , I was about be a "grown-up" in the proverbial"real world".When I was in college, I probably felt like it was never going to end. I felt untouchable, invincible, that I could do anything I wanted , and then everything changed .


Suddenly all my friends are dispersed across the country and my new best friend is my computer.
The colors of friendship have started fading away.No more late night calls(rather no calls), hangouts ,con-calls or messages with your friends  . You get to know their recent activities ,like movies or dinners or expeditions ,on Facebook , that too if they are generous enough to let the world know what they are up-to (sarcasm).The laws of social sites baffle me .And why wont they ,after all I fail to understand how people get time to post "Check-ins " and yet claim to have not a minute to "check-about " their so called "friends".


In my office, I'm surrounded by enlightened and engaging individuals. But I've been miserable. I've been hopelessly and unrelentingly miserable.I thought that I'd succumbed to that societal myth about the millennial generation--ungrateful, easily distracted, cynical...you know, all the wonderful things!


However, the deeper issue is one that so many face. We might think the source is our job. Though it might be, it most likely is not. We all get stuck in the past, trying to recreate the comforts and assuredness of occurrences best left for younger years. College is wonderful. It's unlike anything else you'll ever experience in your life. One of the most imperative things that college teaches us to inherently do is to connect to other people. It seems as soon as we graduate, we forget that. It's one of the best lessons we can garner.


20-somethings are genetically conditioned to be perpetually unhappy. Especially when they just left the most untamed period of their lives. We're still looking for the next hopping party, awesome new person or recent iteration of the iPhone. Until we find it, the blues will ensue.We are not supposed to have a life plan affixed to one unyielding path yet. If nothing else, it's better to figure out what we don't want to be doing.We made friends in college for a reason. We need to talk to them. Graduation doesn't mean they no longer exist. Skype is a thing. Use it with relish.


We don't have to answer all of life's questions. Getting a job, an apartment & paying our own bills means that we  have steady employment and decent credit. Nothing more. Nothing less. We don't have to have all of the answers. our life will be more fulfilling if we spend it questioning things rather than seeking answers to everything.


Yes I'm 23. Yes I'm employed. Will I be in this same position a year from now? Only the universe knows. The point is this: We are given but a short time on this earth. Don't waste it. Connect to others. Experience life. If you're not feeling completely fulfilled at this point and juncture, then that's perfectly fine. We're not supposed to. We simply don't know enough about life or ourselves for that matter. Calm down and go meet someone new over a glass of wine. That's how you truly make society better. That's how you beat the miserable.

We All Need An Ananya !!!

Being a fan of romantic movies " 2 States " is one movie that I couldn't have missed. Though i read the book earlier and didn't find anything new in the movie except a few facts ,the movie in itself gave me a message.

When I look at my life today , I find myself on the verge of a change . College getting over , friends moving to different parts of the world . Some will stay in touch and some will casually fade themselves out of our life.
As we move from place to place, leaving homes and other geographical locations; and as we break up or are being broken up with, leaving people who knew us “when”; and as we change careers, leaving behind a part of our talents, skills, and dreams, we lose the witnesses to our lives .

At the end of the movie , I was left with a strange question . So I decided to take a sneak-peek at my future - " A corporate slave working for some MNC the whole day , eating at some food-joint in the evening and then sleeping my ass-off to get ready for another day of slavery ". The utter monotonicity of this activity just shook my rock-bottom .What was missing in there.. I'll tell you what was missing . It missed the " thrill of fight". A fight for something I badly want .

From our childhood we all have had to fight for something pocket-money,boards ,girl-friends,entrance exams ,college exams .Its in our system . We all land up with a job and pretty much all will have the same life as I mentioned above . I do not want this life and i think neither of you guys will want to lead a life . Thats why we all need an "Ananya" in our lives.

Who is "Ananya "??

For me " Ananya " is

Something you " fall in love with on first-sight" ,

Something you are "Crazy " about ,

Something you can fight for against all "Odds",

Something which makes your life " Beautiful ",

Something which makes your life " Meaningless " without it,

Something the very thought of which makes you "Smile",

Something which brings " Happiness",

Something you just " Got to have",

Something you can can cross all your " Limits" for,

Something the feelings for which "don't fade or go away". They continue to grow stronger each day,

Something as the new Nike ad says you can " Risk Everything" for.

How amazing will be life with an " Ananya" on your side. For people wondering why i used "Something" instead of "Someone" and that I am gramatically wrong , "Ananya " may not necessarily be a person , it can be anything , anything you are passionate about and are ready to fight for till you just get it .We all know we need the "Thrill of Fight " and the " Fear of Lose" to drive our lives .
So rather than being afraid of just losing our petty jobs , be afarid of losing your " Ananya", love it and fight for it till its yours's and life will be much more adventurous and meaningful .

That's why we all need an " Ananya" , start searching for your's..

Lets Be Honest !!!

“Our lives only improve when we are willing to take chances and the first and most difficult risk we can take is to be honest with ourselves.” ~Walter Anderson


For almost two-and-a-half decades, I hid behind masks. I sensed as a very young child that I lived honoring my true self, like most children do, but as I got older, I started putting on masks as a way to fit in. We all do that somewhere or the other. Its not something wrong but it becomes when these masks raise questions on the credibility of your sheer existence and define you as an entity that hardly exists.
It's hard to be honest . We all have our faults and its difficult to admit them. Sometimes we are so blindfolded by the mask itself,that we don't even realize what damage we are causing around.Its hard to be honest and i am not saying to be honest everytime . But at least be honest when you know that stakes are high.At least be honest when you know that even a single wrong word may change the dynamics of your whole life , let alone others around you.
Many a bonds have been broken just because we are not ready to give up our masks. Masks which we let define ourselves so much that we even forgot who we really are.So much so that we are scared that taking them of will leave us scathed , tattered and may demolish all our bonds. What we dont realize that relations are a two way affair. A word of honesty can lead to a knot in the thread which can still be opened but if the mask of self-delusional lie is not removed at the right time,it may just as well break the thread forever


I wouldn’t say that we have a “one size fits all” mask removal strategy, but I have found that when we are willing to step out of our comfort zone, good things will happen. We need to trust that.
We may need to take a leap of our own to get in touch with our true self. It doesn’t need to be huge, as long as we move forward in some way. Like the Nike commercials says, “Just Do it!” What’s important is to find what works for us and start moving, inch by inch, beyond our fear. Lets just be ourselves.Lets Be Honest.